The Pursuit of Belonging
I've had a lot of conversations with several friends about this time of life: this post grad, not "adulting" yet stage of life. I'm not a student anymore, which has been my whole life up to this point. I don't have a job, and I'm not actively searching for one either. I feel content with where I am because I know that God has plans for me. I am waiting on His timing and I am trying my best to stay faithful to that.
The world has so many expectations for what college graduates should be doing with their lives. One of them being, not moving back home with your parents. Another one, having a job and making your way up the social ladder. Another, feeling confident in your ability to do anything. You know what? God has other plans for me because I don't meet those expectations one bit. I don't feel like I have to meet the world's expectations, in fact, I don't want to. But it is hard to wait on God's timing in the midst of being looked at like a lost, scruffy mutt on the side of the street. (That seems a little exaggerated but a graduated art major not having a job, is kind of expected.)
The Lord has been overwhelmingly faithful and has provided way beyond I could ever imagine. My family has been endlessly supportive of me moving back home. My home city of Albuquerque holds so many interesting places that I can explore, mountains to climb and deserts to roam in. I have an amazing boyfriend who is the most encouraging. My photography business is steady. I feel as if everybody else is worried about me more than I am worried about me. I know Who holds my life and Who created my thoughts and this moment.
I am in a pursuit of belonging. I know Who I belong to but where, is still a huge question. I don't belong in Las Cruces where I went to school. I don't belong in Glorieta because I don't work there anymore. I haven't found my place in Albuquerque yet. In the mean time, I am trying to stay intentional with friends and getting coffee. I am trying to stay creative. I am trying to focus on what I can control, and that is my attitude towards this time of life. I am focusing on my relationship with the Lord and letting Him remind me of who I am and His promises.