Gospel Series
So I have been in a weird place spiritually for a while. Not anything bad, just weird. Weird in the sense that I know that God loves me, forgives me and created me. My faith has not been questioned. Satan has definitely been attacking me in my weakest spots. I know that He has my future and my life in His hands. I know that He provides for me but I have been having a hard time believing that He sees me, that He actually hears my prayers. I have been frustrated that I have been complaining about circumstances I prayed for, that God placed me in. I have been frustrated that life after college hasn’t been what I expected. I have been frustrated that friendships have been different recently.
I have been stuck in a cycle of complaining and frustration. I have been stuck in a cycle of letting satan attacking me. I am definitely still working on this and letting God work in it. Sometimes it isn’t enough for me to just pray and read my Bible. It becomes a routine that is necessary yet I lose the “why?” behind it. I end up praying about my fears instead of being grateful for what He has already given me. I forgot about the good things that God provided. I forgot about the passions God gave me. I forgot about what brought me life. I forgot about the things I used to do despite the frustrations. SO I thought about what brought me life. I remembered that traveling and road trips were things I looked forward to. I remembered that I saw the most amazing views and places in the whole world on those trips. I remembered that I went on those trips with the best travel companions. SO I wanted to do something. I needed to do something. I needed to create something instead of just complain to God and then expect an answer to my complaints during my quiet times.
I made a series of videos about those three things God reminded me of: Travel, Nature and Friendships. I chose songs that worked for each of those themes yet also didn’t distract from how I was trying to reground myself. I chose Sleeping At Last because of the simple and powerful lyrics and calming music. These videos I made are not supposed to be flashy or well done. These are just videos that help reground who God has made me to be. I think it is important to share what we go through especially as believers. I think it is important to share what God lies on our hearts and how we continue to strive for Him in the struggle.
So let’s keep on keeping on as believers, travelers, creatures, friends. Let us encourage each other in this life that is never easy. Let us walk through the struggles and point out what we love about each other. I am so grateful for this life despite all of my complaints.